Tonight is the night I should finally put into action, all the thoughts I think and the words I preach. I had a dinner planned with the girls. He had a post-holiday work party with his close friend. But he said he would not be out late, and wanted to catch up with me early, to have a low key night.

I had a great night.  Scratch that, I had an incredible night.  My three best friends were all here.  We went out to eat, we hung out, we had some drinks and many laughs.  It’s 12:30 am.  It’s not too late, but it’s later than he had anticipated being out.  I should just say ‘have fun darling,’ and fall fast asleep, although it may be alone.  After all, I’m up fairly early to volunteer tomorrow.

But…. he SAID we would spend tonight together.  He SAID that he wouldn’t be out too late and that he’d come back this way to spend the night.  He SAID… well what he said doesn’t mean much, beause if I’ve learned anything from this relationship – it would be that my boyfriend lives on the ‘no plan plan.’  And tonight is the perfect night to let it go. I’m tired, I had fun.  He’s out, he’s having fun.  Sounds like a win win situation right?

Yes, and it needs to be.  The old me would get so angry.  Angry that he changed his plans, angry that he said he would come over, angry that he didn’t.

Aaah, the art of letting go – and not picking fights where one needs not be.