Do you step over it? Kick it, break it, watch it crumble? Or are you too busy with your head held high, looking up towards the sky, to even see it? Do you walk right into it, trip, stumble.

My heart hurts a bit today. My head aches full with to do lists and overdue tasks at work. My bank account has been defeated by a long weekend. Happiness is so many things. But happiness is not now. I’m struggling to get through the day, excited that it’s already 1pm, yet set back by my unproductive morning. Putting things off at work is even more demoralizing than putting things off in my personal realm of life. Putting things off at work gives me anxiety. Bossman always seems to ask for the things I’ve been putting off, the day before I decide to finish them. Tricky, isn’t he?

Anyways, today is just a tough day. The snow falling is beginning to turn to rain. An even stronger indicator that today, and tonight may just be a day to mope. To eat the pile of candy left over from my 3D Avatar experience yesterday. To eat the pasta that’s in my cupboard. That, will not only be satisfying – it is also of necessity. Pay day is Friday and I’ll be eating left overs while drinking homemade coffee and water until then.

Today, almost a month into my journey towards happiness, I encountered a wall. Nothing I can’t step over, or even break down with my riding boots. I know my sorrowful state will pass, and my giddy natured self will return. But damn. Walking around with your head held high, looking towards the sky, is not always the smartest way to roam. Too often I’m afraid I’ll miss the reality that I face on the ground.

One day at a time, cheers.

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